Summary from Goodreads
According to her guidance counselor, fifteen-year-old Payton Gritas needs a focus object-an item to concentrate her emotions on. It's supposed to be something inanimate, but Payton decides to use the thing she stares at during class: Sean Griswold's head. They've been linked since third grade (Griswold-Gritas-it's an alphabetical order thing), but she's never really known him.
The focus object is intended to help Payton deal with her father's newly diagnosed multiple sclerosis. And it's working. With the help of her boy-crazy best friend Jac, Payton starts stalking-er, focusing on-Sean Griswold . . . all of him! He's cute, he shares her Seinfeld obsession (nobody else gets it!) and he may have a secret or two of his own.
In this sweet story of first love, Lindsey Leavitt seamlessly balances heartfelt family moments, spot-on sarcastic humor, and a budding young romance.
Payton freaks mostly about her father's MS because they hide it from her and because she is afraid of future outcomes. It was an enjoyable journey to follow Payton throughout her enlightenment. In the beginning, she got too dependent on one thing in order to avoid the tension in her house and within her self. In the end, after all her rebellion, Payton realizes that most things in life can't be planned or organized and that she has to take them as they come and let it make her stronger. When Payton completed the race for her father, no one was more proud than me, and surprised at how deep Payton had burrowed into my heart.